To be real, I felt some fear start to creep up as I entered a new month. A month I am craving after a long rainy winter that felt like 10months long. Fears like the not good enoughs, not doing enoughs, and the tinge of overwhelm that comes when you feel like you’re behind schedule yet you don’t even have a schedule.
I used to get so caught up in creating goals and writing them all out and in turn placing so much pressure on myself to make them happen. Then of course by this time that said pressure became too much because it was unrealistic to begin with. Thus I would begin to falter and then I would start beating myself up for it which eventually left me to just quitting all together.
That old belief that a calendar dictates progress, that goals must be SMART and the weight we bear in order to achieve them. Even just typing this out I feel a shiver of the past and feeling so grateful I let that all go.
But honestly, I’m not behind. I’m still good enough and doing plenty despite not having started the new month in a fashion that feels like what everyone else is doing. I used to automatically turn to others around me to make decisions or measure my level of success. But I always fell short and it just didn’t feel good.
Instead, I’m doing it my way, at my own pace, on my own terms. I don’t need a new calendar date to start. I can start today or next week or July 31. That fear I felt is an expectation generated from my own fear and lingering perfectionism and reinforced by outside expectations around me. So I tuned into my own BS, placed all those shoulda woulda couldas in a box and smashed it.
Practice the pause and ask yourself these questions:
How much power are you giving your expectations?
Is your calendar and schedule serving you?
What do you need to reclaim in order to feel more flow and alignment in your everyday?
Where can you infuse more forgiveness, grace and ease?
So friend, today’s loving reminder: I’m human and so are you. And you don’t need other people to tell you how to live your best life, because only YOU know what’s best for you.